I was waiting for the dr to come in, and I was already disappointed thinking that I'd have to wait for a whole cycle to try again. I was going to label March a wasted month. Then my dr came in and explained he wanted to go ahead and do round 3 with a higher dose starting that day. It's called stair stepping (and of course I googled anything I could as soon as I left the office). I was excited that we didn't have to wait until the next month (still hope for a 2016 baby). As I left I schedule a follicle scan for the next week to see if it worked.
A week later, I still hadn't felt anything. So, I was sure it hadn't worked again. I went in and had my ultrasound. To my surprise, it had worked! The doctor thought I looked like I'd be ovulating in a few days, so he wanted me to track my ovulation with at home tests. He said that if we didn't get pregnant on this go, the next cycle he wanted to do the trigger shot so that we'd know exactly when I ovulated.
Photo: (top) Left Ovary with mature follie, (bottom) Right Ovary full of cysts
Holy wow, I was a roller coaster. Anyone and everyone was driving me insane. I was breaking out like crazy, and I felt like I couldn't control my emotions. I was frustrated, and went to Kody crying asking if we could take a break if this time didn't work. I felt like a failure again. How could I want to take a break when we only started medicine two months prior? I just felt like I couldn't handle the hormones, and I was sure it was because of the back to back rounds and increased dosage.
During the second week of the dreaded 2 week wait, I felt totally back to normal. My temperament was evening out, my face was starting to clear up, and I started to get rid of a couple of pounds I had gained back. I was relieved, and honestly ready to take the plunge next cycle.
I'm thankful for a husband who comforts and does his best to understand my crazy waves of emotions. I am blessed with the best.
Until next time...